(via banananne)
This makes a disappointing amount of sense to me. I wish it weren’t so. It would be easier then.
Past three attempts to attend a library for studying purposes has resulted in near-hyperventilation...
Probably a bad sign, but I’m not willing to let it deter me. It’s just all of these frantic people in here that scare the shit out of me. Much happier in my own world of relaxed ignorance to the stress of exam time.
I think I'm officially becoming American... I just watched the Saints-Redskins game and really enjoyed it. Football. I enjoyed football.
Well, there goes that.
[Flash 9 is required to listen to audio.]
Orange Shirt - Discovery
“ll this love that youre keepin’
And me i’ve got a crush
Can I sleep inside I know you’re nervous though
So I promise to leave before your mother wakes up in the morning”
Things you should listen to but I can't post for you:
1. When the Night Feels my Song — Bedouin Soundclash
2. I Need You — Curtis Mayfield and the Impressions
3. We’re a Winner — Curtis Mayfield and the Impressions
4. Border Crossing — Throwback
5. Ain’t Nothin’ Like the Real Thing — Marvin Gaye
Part of the reason I am avoiding studying is because I am scared. The other part is because I've lost motivation.
When the world is full of bad news, or the good news is drowned out by naysayers and conservative status quo-mongers, my world feels dark and constrained. When I learn more about this legal system and realize the barriers I am up against to even inch the world towards a better reality, I feel lost and alone.
I know I can be very, very good at this profession I’ve chosen. I know I will be very, very good at it. I just don’t know if I can handle being very, very good at something and not using it for the betterment of the existence of humanity. Just doing something has never been an option for me. It needs to be about something more. I won’t let myself be very, very good at keeping the world the same.
